— Honestly? Jasnah is tempted. A kind of hunger claws under her ribs, making her crave the things she's always valued over physicality: bonding, relating, engaging. For a moment, watching the other woman's smile and hearing Verso's laughter, she thought maybe she understood the value in the gesture. The risk-reward of the dance. Like, they both left their performance feeling a little fuller.
(Another more stubborn wingbeat in her chest forces her to ask: can't intellectual conversation provide the same?)
Here's the thing. As real as her temptation is, Jasnah can't simply raise her hand and cut in. Not with these three scribes watching. Quite apart from any social hesitation, there are political implications. If she dances with him in front of these three women, they'll mistake him for a suitor. If the highprinces get whiff of a possible suitor (however incorrectly) then it becomes a whole new headache.
So, instead! She clears her throat and cuts her voice across the room: "That's quite enough for the time being, Dessendre. Don't you think you've distracted the poor girls long enough?"
...Even the one in sky blue can't quite bring herself to correct the queen, even if her eyes tell a different story.
Yes, Jasnah thinks. She'll have to wait her turn when there are fewer witnesses.
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(Another more stubborn wingbeat in her chest forces her to ask: can't intellectual conversation provide the same?)
Here's the thing. As real as her temptation is, Jasnah can't simply raise her hand and cut in. Not with these three scribes watching. Quite apart from any social hesitation, there are political implications. If she dances with him in front of these three women, they'll mistake him for a suitor. If the highprinces get whiff of a possible suitor (however incorrectly) then it becomes a whole new headache.
So, instead! She clears her throat and cuts her voice across the room: "That's quite enough for the time being, Dessendre. Don't you think you've distracted the poor girls long enough?"
...Even the one in sky blue can't quite bring herself to correct the queen, even if her eyes tell a different story.
Yes, Jasnah thinks. She'll have to wait her turn when there are fewer witnesses.